Starry Dreamer

Reflections of a Dreaming Girl

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The original post only has US helplines. I've added UK helplines underneath. It would be great if people could add numbers from everywhere in the world.
Depression Hotline:
Suicide Hotline:
Trevor Project:
Sexuality Support:
Eating Disorders Hotline:
Rape and Sexual Assault:
Grief Support:
1-800-843-5200, 1-800-843-5678, 1-800-621-4000
After Abortion Hotline/Pro-Voice: 1-866-4394253
Child Abuse:
UK Helplines:
Samaritans (for any problem):
08457909090 e-mail
Childline (for anyone under 18 with any problem):
Mind infoline (mental health information):
0300 123 3393 e-mail:
Mind legal advice (for people who need mental-health related legal advice):
0300 466 6463
b-eat eating disorder support:
0845 634 14 14 (only open Mon-Fri 10.30am-8.30pm and Saturday 1pm-4.30pm) e-mail:
b-eat youthline (for under 25's with eating disorders):
08456347650 (open Mon-Fri 4.30pm - 8.30pm, Saturday 1pm-4.30pm)
Cruse Bereavement Care:
08444779400 e-mail:
Frank (information and advice on drugs):
0800 9178282
Rape Crisis England & Wales:
0808 802 9999 1(open 2 - 2.30pm 7 - 9.30pm) e-mail
Rape Crisis Scotland:
08088 01 03 02 every day, 6pm to midnight
India Self Harm Hotline:
00 08001006614
India Suicide Helpline:
Kids Help Phone (Canada):
1-800-668-6868, Free and available 24/7
suicide hotlines;
(Hong Kong:
Costa Rica:
Czech Republic:
222-580-697, 476-701-908
6722-2922, 2772-2292
New Zealand:
New Guinea:
South Africa:
South Korea:
Trinidad and Tobago:

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OMG so I just watched “Journey’s End” for the first time and it was so intense and so sad. I’d seen gifs and stuff from it for ages, but it did not prepare me.

Cool to see all those Companions together - Rose and Martha and Jack and Sarah Jane and Mickey and Jackie and Donna - that was a treat.

Plus I got my first look at the Torchwood crew in this episode and the last (I haven’t seen Torchwood yet), and I liked it. That glimpse definitely makes me want to watch Torchwood. :)

And now I can start watching SJA again (Stolen Earth/Journey’s End happens between Series 1 and 2 of SJA, so I wanted to hold off on watching more than Series 1 of SJA till then).

Davros OMG. Scary as hell! Dalek Caan was freaky too. Tentoo was not as amazing as he was hyped up to be for me. Still I loved that now Rose has her Doctor with her forever, kinda sorta, through Tentoo, since she traveled so far to find The Doctor and all.

The end with Donna though…so sad. She saved the universe, and she’ll never know. I mean, I knew that was going to happen, but it’s a lot sadder when you watch it. :(

I’m mixed on the whole thing about Donna and destiny…on the one hand, it works out and it’s cool, cause she doesn’t believe in herself and The Doctor helps her realize she’s brilliant and can save the universe. But on the other hand, a predestination plot seems a bit cheap. I like normal people who go on to great things because of the impact The Doctor has on them, how he touches them. We see that in the Companions who come back here - how wimpy, flirty Jack became a leader, Sarah Jane learned how to fight, how tough Martha became, how hard Rose worked to get back to The Doctor, etc. Their destinies weren’t wrapped up in The Doctor’s. Donna could’ve realized how brilliant she was some other way.

What I’m afraid of is that my character Alys Reed has the same premise - she doesn’t have enough self-confidence. But in my case, it’s always been about her getting stronger and The Doctor helping her do that…so as long as I don’t pull a predestination thing, I think I’ll be ok.

Sorry, bit of a rant. Well anyway, finally done with Series 4…let’s see if I can make it through the David Tennant Specials before Capaldi lands. Not a lot of time, but I’ll try!

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Caught up on Food Network Star

Finally got caught up with Food Network Star, watching it through to the end.

Lenny the Gourmet Cowboy won! I’ve liked him since the beginning so I was really happy. Though frankly, I would’ve happy to see either him or Luca win. Nicole, the other finalist, was just eh.

Luca though…I kinda had a crush on him from the beginning. He’s smokin’ hot and that Italian accent is TO DIE FOR. Plus he can actually cook really well. His show concept was good too. The fact that he was eliminated in week 2, worked his way through Star Salvation, made it back, then made the final 2 is really impressive. He is definitely willing to work hard.

Still, I can definitely get into Lenny. Plus I feel like this show taught me a lot about how to market yourself, which is something I need to learn if I’m gonna be an author.

Definitely going to watch this show next season!

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Student Loans: A Roadblock to this Generation - FaithGateway

I definitely recommend this article. I myself graduated college debt-free and I don’t regret it. My mom has school debts and it seems really stressful. I’m really glad I don’t have that to deal with that.

How did I do it? Well, first off, I got my GE out of the way at a community college. You save money this way, believe me. It’s also a good idea if, like I was at the time, you aren’t quite sure what you want to major in. The large variety of classes at community college let you try a bunch of different subjects to figure out what you like best.

Of course, at a community college you will probably be thinking about transferring to a four-year university, unless your career of choice doesn’t require that. So it’s probably best to meet with a counselor to figure out how to do that. At my school there were a couple paths to doing this. Either you could pick an Associate’s Degree and take the courses for that, or you could do the IGETC (Inter-Segmental General Education Transfer Curriculum), which is multi-disciplinary but is accepted by all the state schools, and graduate with a Associate’s in University Studies, basically a “transfer A.A.” (or A.S.). I went the IGETC route, mainly cause I still wasn’t sure what my major was, and I had already determined that I was going to go to a state school to save money.

If, like me, you are going to school in California, there is a helpful online tool called Assist that lets you compare courses at different schools to see what transfers between them, which can help you get your lower division stuff out of the way. This can help a lot when you’re transferring, since that way you can take less courses and thereby save on college costs (and have less debts!).

Now, I have a confession: I was in community college for five years. That is a lot longer than it takes most people. But because I was also working part-time and I didn’t want to kill myself, I only took 12 units a semester. So it took longer. 12 units was the minimum for full-time, and I had to be full-time to stay on my parents’ health insurance, as I had no health benefits through my job. This meant that in addition to my IGETC courses I took a lot of random stuff. I took P.E., courses in Microsoft Office, beginning piano, beginning acting, practically every course in the Business Office Technology department (which taught things like typing, transcription, proofreading, etc), and printmaking, among others. I graduated with like 90 units, when I only needed like 70 to transfer.

For my IGETC classes I tried to be well-rounded too. I took math statistics, anthropology, chemistry, Asian religion and philosophy, Intro to Film, human development, art history…basically whatever classes looked most interesting to me out of the choices provided. And it was fun! I also mixed it up with on-campus classes and online ones, which is great if you need to work around a job or other commitment. Taking online classes, which are typically self-paced to a degree, also shows that you are self-motivated, an important life skill.

Anyway, after those five years, I was 24 years old and ready to transfer. Time to think about financial aid. Thankfully, my grades were good, which I hoped would work for me, as I figured I wouldn’t be able to get need-based aid due to being a middle-class white girl. So I started out by doing what every person wanting financial aid should do: fill out and submit the FAFSA. The FAFSA (Free Application for Federal Student Aid) is necessary for getting any sort of federal government financial aid (and possibly state too), be it loans or grants. Typically it is due around March. You need tax info for this as well to show how much you or your parents can pay toward school, so save those stubs and such.

And here is where God must’ve really come through for me. I did the FAFSA but did not at that time apply for any other aid. Also, the FAFSA was based on my taxes, since I was no longer being counted as a dependent on my parents’ taxes. At the time, I had just started my current job and was making barely over minimum wage.

And then the results come back: I had qualified for a Pell Grant AND a State University Grant, enough to cover all my tuition for the year and then some. (I was going to a local school, so I didn’t have room and board expenses).

I was stoked. Grants you don’t have to pay back. You just earn them. My hard work at school had paid off. My low-paying job, not exactly an asset in my life other than it provided money and health benefits, worked out for me too because it allowed me to be eligible for need-based aid I might not have qualified for otherwise. (Now, obviously, if you can get a good job while in school, go for it. I just happened to not have a high-paying job at the time even though I’d tried to get one).

I managed to get these grants all 3 years I was at my four-year uni just by working hard in class and filing my FAFSA each year. The only money I paid for school was for a couple summer courses my grants didn’t cover, and when I did a payment plan one semester to cover for the fact that one of the grants didn’t kick in right away for some reason. (The grant later kicked in retroactively, and I got the money from it paid to me because I had already paid for what that grant would’ve covered, using the payment plan). I graduated with my B.A. in 2011 completely debt-free.

So it can be done. Give it a shot!

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The more interviews and stuff I watch with Peter Capaldi the more I love him. Today I watched the Q & A highlights from the Sydney stop of the Doctor Who World Tour, and when the host reads aloud the letter Capaldi wrote to Radio Times when he was 15, Capaldi looks SO embarrassed, it’s funny.

Capaldi also comments that Jenna had trouble pronouncing his name at first, and that she clearly is the “senior partner” and “wears the trousers” in the relationship. He also talked about his first time shooting. Apparently, Jenna showed him around the TARDIS the night before they shot the regeneration scene. During the actual filming, they kept Matt and him separate (similar to when Matt filmed his scene in “The End of Time”), and Capaldi waited in the wings while Matt and Jenna did their bit, and then he was told to come on, and as Matt was going offstage he gave Capaldi a hug, then gave him that pocketwatch you always see Eleven wearing with his purple suit, telling him “This is yours now. The TARDIS is yours.” Aww…

Interesting too is when they were asked to describe Series 8 in three words. Jenna actually used 3 sets of 3 words: “the promised land,” “strange but charming,” and I forget the third one. Capaldi, however, just took 3 words: “trust no one.” Ooh. “Strange but charming” probably refers to The Doctor, whereas I think “the promised land” may have to do with the search for Gallifrey, or maybe with the finale (seeing as the last episode is called “Death in Heaven”).

I still can’t believe they went straight from 8 months of shooting to go on this tour. How insane must that be for them.

3 days! Can’t wait!

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Interesting Public Transit Encounters

On the train to pick up this book at the library, an older lady (maybe 60 or so) named Roberta who was sitting across from me noticed my NaNoWriMo shirt and asked me about it, and we had this great conversation about writing and fanfiction (YES, fanfiction!) and stuff till I got to my stop.

On the bus home, I started talking to this nice guy whose name was Chris. We talked about school and work, typical small talk, then he tries to ask me out for coffee, even asks for my number, and I turned him down. Probably stupid as I have no boyfriend and should maybe cherish these moments when guys actually ask me out, but turning them down seems to be my default response. Don’t know why. It’s not as if I don’t like guys. I do. I’m not like gay or something. I am very certain about that. On the one hand, I feel behind my peers because I’ve never dated, but at the same time I’m not like desperate to date, to the point that I will accept anyone who asks. It’s just not really a priority, even though I act like it is. Either that or I’m like Mindy Kaling’s character in “The Mindy Project,” with this unrealistic, romantic idea of how dating should be, based on romantic comedies. I think I am like Beatrice from Much Ado About Nothing or Elizabeth Bennett or Jane Eyre - I need to be brought around to love. I had my heart broken when I was around 16 - even though I did the breaking up and the guy wasn’t even my boyfriend, just a friend - and for some stupid reason I haven’t felt willing to go for love since. Plus I am very introverted and socially awkward.

Two VERY different encounters indeed.

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Been playing around with this rather ridiculous story idea of Darren’s regular exposure to the TARDIS’s energy (through his lessons in TARDIS flight) turning him physically into a Gallifreyan. In this rather ridiculous story, Gallifrey is still around and Eleven is a little more Time Lord-ish than usual. He doesn’t really do anything to stop the transformation (by the time he finds out about it it’s too late to change Darren completely back into a human), just helps him try to figure out why it happened and help him get through it. He then ends up taking Darren to Gallifrey so the process can be finalized and Darren can go to the Time Lord Academy and stuff. So far gotten to the point where Darren gets his memories of his old life blocked so he can take on a new identity as a Time Lord. Most people off-Gallifrey will remember his old life; the only exception is The Doctor, cause the two of them agreed it was probably best he forgot his part in Darren’s human life (otherwise it would be like another Ten/Donna situation).

It’s all pretty ridiculous really. It stemmed from a weird idea I had while working out a side story where The Doctor, Alys, and Darren get stuck in a maze that shows what might have been if they had made different choices in certain cases. (A bit like an infinite “Turn Left” universe, I guess). The change would probably have had something to do with the TARDIS energy exposure plus the effects of the memory enhancer from this other video game tournament side story.

May turn this into an “Inferno”-like story, where the TARDIS slips into an alternate universe where Darren is a Time Lord for some reason.

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OMG yes…why has this not happened? So many of his Companions have been women, after all.

On the other hand, you’d think he knows enough about science to know about that…but maybe not. By his time, Gallifreyans hadn’t been able to give birth naturally for centuries. Plus, you can’t assume guys know how it is for girls and vice versa. I didn’t even know anything about male reproductive stuff till I took this independent study health class right before my senior year of high school. Before all I’d been taught was the female stuff. They even segregated us by gender when we got to that part in high school biology class.


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OMG yes…why has this not happened? So many of his Companions have been women, after all.

On the other hand, you’d think he knows enough about science to know about that…but maybe not. By his time, Gallifreyans hadn’t been able to give birth naturally for centuries. Plus, you can’t assume guys know how it is for girls and vice versa. I didn’t even know anything about male reproductive stuff till I took this independent study health class right before my senior year of high school. Before all I’d been taught was the female stuff. They even segregated us by gender when we got to that part in high school biology class.


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